krŏn'ĭk-O's:An Empirical Analysis of State Enmity
krŏn'ĭk-O's witnesses the trajectories reflected in intersecting front lines and encourages the exchanges and expressions of experiences, inspirations, and practical means of loving and living. Author/Poet/Organizer, L.A. Profe, is a queer Oaxaqueña raised in the Venice Boardwalk. Initated by the streets of L.A. she comes from a long line of sidelined intellectuals, of displaced indigenous farmers, shaped and influenced by matriarchal figures of resistance.
Monday, July 11, 2011
drop the i
a twisted
gratitude
i said
drop the i
drop the i
drop the il
keep the legal
legitimize
my tongue
respect my accent
quarantine the colors
that project
“poor and
criminal”
c’mon
let’s
be
equal
i said
drop the i
i said
drop the il
keep the legal
cause i never want to be your mirror
the other
your “equal”
that lets you get away
with some
straight
out
racist shit
genocidal garbage
like damn,
“did this fool just say that shit”
divide and conquer
cut the chains of
charity corners
famed lotto liquor store owners
making payments for a life
you have yet to live
enjoy
better said
annoy the fuck out of it
so that our imprints
libres, lindas, y locas
invite the recollection
of a memory
from within
impartially breathing
call in 2 being
what we whispered to the scribes in the heavens
we wanted to become
All or None of Us
gentrifying deaths
indebted to the interest rate
of pelican bay hunger strikers
S.H.U.I.ng starvation though every cell
in the golden state
for humanity
castigate their own shadows
orchestrate a fire that burns
louder than pre 4th of July firework
laker championship
Dodgers versus Giants baseball game
kind of riots
buckled in chains
without permission
take over their selfs
so if you feel like a petrifying wetback faggot caught your eye
call it like it is
so that no one has to hide
so that third genders
are as visible to us as our third eyes
so that duality is not just a standard option
of a partriachal dichotomous potion
cause queer is a politic
history has afforded us to
maintain
(2x)
transcend tranny titles
spirit at our core
self-centered botox vultures
american
A-list toy boy
need to have it culture
nurtures hate
and
neglects to interject
so i don’t claim this shit as mine
in taxes and titles
write off
my idols
for saints
that castrate mistakes
im with a holier kind of death
a more humane way to understand the
exits
and fire escapes
of this here land of the great
but man made laws weren’t made for me
a heavenly scion
morphed every morning
ren, yi, li zhi, xin,
what is criminal?
when sinners are considered saints
when the
waving flag
of corporations
signal a more humane occupation
when these have more rights
than the population of the foreign nation they
efface through drought and starvation
cause
to love something is to want it to live
and if you love this city
thrive from within
like the homeboi says
“he who wants a rose must respect the thorn”
people of the corn are reborn outside of concrete jungle walls
in this western world we all medicate,
in obsessive lust,
w. self-centerness,
desiring material
musts
outside of ourselves...
suffocate our realities for the verbs
that orchestrate
a sick pathology to feed off of drama,
misery, and emotional comas where only right and wrong matter
..fuck the gray matter,
pavement n dirt have
always been my favorite color
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
summer fevers
I sit down to write this play with fear
about the truth I will share
In this case, my take of what it was for others
Aside from a collective memory
that some rather not share with me,
I trace most crossroads
to moments
where I didn’t feel lost
I remember the need to
trust
to believe in something greater-
In me
not outside in satisfactory complacent contentment’s
but true peace
I heard the voice within
the paranormal mumbles
in cold feet
in doubt
in intuitive stomach growls
turn into
restless night aches
boiling nightmares
into summer fevers
yes the moments where I had no recollection of being a quitter
I’ve grown
And the comparison
still shows
In my demeanor,
I don’t care to be like anyone else
Role models
disguise the distance between making it
and breaking back midnight hour graveyard watchmen days
But heroes
Do exist
Not superman like
A series of prescribed events
Heavenly sent
Malinalli
Sprouts
Changes
rains in each of us,
the redundancy of bringing the past into the ever so unpredictable yet "coincidental" now
where its heavy to carry
the imprints of a
thousand loves
and lives lived
proclivities aside,
if a player recognize game:
then my friend-
we’ve already met
cause all the things that i hate
about others
starts with myself
cause we give meaning to livelihoods by adding titles
to the careers we profess ourselves to
be born to do
a twisted
gratitude
to find a place where silence is golden
where we are not told what to do
what to wear
when to swear
or whom to pledge allegiance to.
until this day i can count the times i raised my right hand over my heart
it’s an art
a translucent penchant
to be lied to
seduced
into abuse
a ridicule of gadgets and distractions
like a kitties trip to a petco
kind of satisfaction
the ethos
a credo that
sings 2-maybe-3
Mex’s
reza 4 corazones del pueblo
y canta 5 leimerts
el mundo te da
donde mas te duele
mero mero
where
it hurts
si le hablas
escucha
y
si escuchas
habla
recio
suave
amable
sin rencor
ni malicia
Friday, May 13, 2011
epithets of attention, you say
all ive ever wanted is love
i didn't figure|
it out
until| i began to
converse
epithets
of attention
i didn't figure|
it out
until| i began to
converse
epithets
of attention
if you catch my flow
then you’ll know
all
i
need
is
love
...
to grow
to believe| that i| can be someone
besides| a screw up
rolling with the crew|
that knew
how to stick
stones
to every verb
mount girls
into another
patriarchal | paramour
besides| a screw up
rolling with the crew|
that knew
how to stick
stones
to every verb
mount girls
into another
patriarchal | paramour
it might| not show
but i got more| bullets| to the head| in a lifetime
of projects
than a Friday
movie
multiplex
but i got more| bullets| to the head| in a lifetime
of projects
than a Friday
movie
multiplex
its not| the punches| that kill us
its the silence| we live with
its the silence| we live with
intimately we weigh it out
and for how long we will have to carry it
and for how long we will have to carry it
---
if bullets were made to aim
their desired target
i wouldn't feel| this wrench in my stomach
no doubt |that life
and sustenance
has a different meaning on the black market
blocks
where you can trade rock
for a cuete
call slick up for a hit
and have rent paid
before the 5th
if bullets were made to aim
their desired target
i wouldn't feel| this wrench in my stomach
no doubt |that life
and sustenance
has a different meaning on the black market
blocks
where you can trade rock
for a cuete
call slick up for a hit
and have rent paid
before the 5th
i evict the habits
of finding love addicts
no one should try hard at it
it just is
as i am
of finding love addicts
no one should try hard at it
it just is
as i am
i introduce| my game
little attitude|
shifting moons
warming the air with a sweet disposition
never| get used to the abuse
no| bitter words
little attitude|
shifting moons
warming the air with a sweet disposition
never| get used to the abuse
no| bitter words
or rants
tell me| what| you| want
kinda love chant
---
what if it means more
than what i wanted it to
what if i get misconstrue
have to explain my way out of something i did not do
---
what if i did want to go there?
in those moments
where we want to share
but are scare
of judgement
committing to our own fallacies
---
what if i change my mind
grow out of it
what will you think of me
if i disclosed
this truth
my truths
the true ones
---
without ambivalence
so no law obligates|you| to respect me
no mandate forces| you |to accept me
without abjection
or restrictive affection-
your faith dictates your surrender
----
so i don’t pray that you stay
i pray that you find your way
a synchronized destiny has written you in facades
rhyming time and space
tell me| what| you| want
kinda love chant
---
what if it means more
than what i wanted it to
what if i get misconstrue
have to explain my way out of something i did not do
---
what if i did want to go there?
in those moments
where we want to share
but are scare
of judgement
committing to our own fallacies
---
what if i change my mind
grow out of it
what will you think of me
if i disclosed
this truth
my truths
the true ones
---
without ambivalence
so no law obligates|you| to respect me
no mandate forces| you |to accept me
without abjection
or restrictive affection-
your faith dictates your surrender
----
so i don’t pray that you stay
i pray that you find your way
a synchronized destiny has written you in facades
rhyming time and space
i pray| poetry |proses| of choices
i pray| that you find your way
i pray| i remain
initiated in the streets
no justice| no peace
the restlessness
of grief
doesn't | let us|sleep
the trouble waters
that shatter|
the slaughter
the fodder|
of change
of progress
every morning to scream to our face:
“you are no less
you are no less
you are no less”
reign|over|me
new city| gleam
let| me|dress
in the new| personality
one that shreds
greed
envy
and me, me, me
the nonapologetic
me
that cuts in front
of me| in long grocery lines
because| of course
their time| is more precious |than mine
how could i not feel so right?
nostalgic
tragedies
haunt
the cowardlly
its when you| face it
that you| can have| the rest
of your life
to
test
porch histories
anomalities of well rounded families
astounded by name calling,
¿nosotros?
¿ellos dijieron que eramos que?
so you white wash the n word
game up your racist sword
doubled bladed
and sworn
too legit to quit
too soon to forget
“we regret to inform you
if we scorn you
we warned you”
there are boundaries you say?
So before you choke me
I grab you by the throat
like Robert Frost quotes
cause words out weight motives
and i receive your legacy in chapter| stories
each titled Infinite Glory
stenches| warn| of the hasteful embrace
"the smell| will linger long after
the day"
Maria would say,
"pores sweat
the regrets| of all that you say"
yes your words| have meaning
yes, sadly, other have to live with them
if you’re an asshole,
how can you| expect anybody to stay?
"my way or the highway"
you say
my father,
there has to be a better end
cause the solution lies in the problem
they say
- Coatl|Tonauac
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